第十六话－《透明的我》～

一直以來
我都只能站在你身後
默默注視守護着你
即使我知道你眼裏從來沒有我

什麽時候你才能回頭看看
看看等待着你的我
看看你在我心中留下的傷痕？

透明的我 

嘿　你看見了嗎
剛剛從你身邊走過的是我

苦笑着等你反應過來
最終卻帶着落寞離開

嘿　你聽見了嗎
說了Ｎ次我好愛你的是我

忐忑着等你決定未來
最後只留下感嘆無奈

認住眼淚説服自己繼續等待
明知你心裏只剩下他給的愛

嘲諷自己只懂得盲目的崇拜
瘋狂的信任分不清青紅皂白

＊　只見你擡頭遙望
　　試圖把眼前的一切盡收眼簾
　　卻唯有我被排除在外

　　從此透明的我
　　太陽下卻再也不見影子
　　内心被灼熱的陽光穿透

　　落魄沉重的我
　　只能徘徊在人群裏
　　然後漸漸散去

終于又是一篇
這一章寫得真是不容易
而且至少耗了我幾天的時間

歌詞的靈感大部分來自身邊的朋友
雖然自己也有切身感受
但依然高興自己終于有能力
為別人的故事創作

p/s: credit to Xii for some help and compliments..thanks a lot!! ^^
　

The Square Root Of Three~

The Square Root of Three by David Feinberg

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

A three is all that's good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath a vicious square-root sign?
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic

I know I'll never see the sun
As 1.7321 (one point seven three two one)

Such is my reality
A sad irrationality

When, hark, just what is this I see?
Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
And with a wave of magic wands

Our square-root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed

I can't promise you the kind of lifestyle that fairy tale is like, and I can't promise you that I'm gonna mature overnight. But what I can promise you is that I will always love you, and I will never try and make you into something that you can not.
　

爱一次伤一世的星座男女～

第一名巨蟹座

巨蟹们的母性情怀和怀旧情怀在爱情里面也发挥得淋漓尽致。在他们的爱情世界里面，常常就只是为了一份感情在牵来扯去，剪不断理还乱。爱的时候毫不犹疑地全心付出，不爱的时候却也依然断不了旧日的缠绵光阴。

第二名狮子座

狮 子座的人对爱情非常有责任感，一旦爱定某个人，会非常认真付出，把对方当成自己目前的家人，甚至未来的家人一样照顾，而且，狮子座的人一旦决定的方向，不 容易改变。如此深情付出，不难想象失恋后的狮子承受的这种情伤到底有多伤。在分手之后的日子，不管是一个月，一年，还是十年，甚至一生，每每想起自己曾经 真诚深刻的付出，要强的狮子还是会在半夜里暗自神伤，落泪！

第三名水瓶座

水瓶座是个有博爱 心胸的星座，因此，很难让人想象，在水瓶的内心，还隐约藏着对爱情的信念。在水瓶的爱情里面，别人是看不到悲痛伤心的。其实这并不代表 水瓶爱得不够多，不够深，伤得不够痛，只是在他们崇高的爱情理念里，这些疼痛都能轻易地被批量隐藏，随着时间慢慢沉淀。而这些关于情伤的记忆，在以后的日 子想起还是会在心底隐隐作痛。

第四名射手座

在很多人的心目中，对一切总是蛮不在乎的射手 是花心出了名的。但是，这样的射手座也并不是没有痴心的可能，只是平日凡人看不出来罢了。其实，无论是正在追求的某个对象已经心有所属，或是正在交往的恋 人变心，射手还是会满心期待地痴心付出等待下去，因为他们深深相信着，努力付出，痴心守候总有一天会等到。爱得深，伤得也深。对射手来说，一生真爱一次， 就足矣怀伤一世。

第五名处女座

永远追求完美的处女，对自己的爱非常执着，而且总是放心不下，即使完全没有在一起的可能，依然牵肠挂肚地关切着对方的冷暖。由此看来，对旧恋情如此放不开的处女，也会是爱一次伤一世的傻瓜。
　

Journey~

been thinking for what happened the whole night
maybe you're right
maybe it's time to move on
cause nothing is ever gonna happen between us anymore

I take back the statement that I want another chance from you
cause it's impossible things are going to be like the good old days

when a thorn is stuck too deep in someone's heart
there's no way anyone can do to pluck it out
no matter how much they try

and with the thorn remain
everything is going to be weird

so don't bother forgiving me
because even so, the end would still be the end
but with less regrets and bad feelings

time to look forward
put back the smile on my face
and step onto a whole new journey

it took me 20 years to finally met someone as good as you are
I just hope I wouldn't have to wait that long until the next one

bottom of the line
I appreciate what happened between us
I'd cherish it forever
but I'm never going to look back to it anymore

I'd always remember how much I loved you
you'll always be the special one to me
but I'm going to stop missing you already

since there's no forever in love
I'd always know that every relationship would end up in pain

but with all these I've been through
I'm already good enough to deal with it
and know what's the best thing to do after all the pain

take care, my friend
I wish you all the best
and I believe that someday
you'd find the happiness that only belongs to you

=)

Panic~

I'm sorry..
after all these while
these are pretty much the things that I wanted to tell you

I understand why are you staying away from me
and I realized what happen between us is all my fault

but you know what
I might look like I'm laughing and being positive all the time

but deep down
I'm just an insecure guy
who would feel so panic
when I doesn't know what someone I cared about was thinking
that's why I was being all childish and annoying

I've never realized what is the problem within me
until I've done put a lot of thoughts into it recently

I understands everything you said about me
I know what my own problem is

and believe it or not
I'm willing, and trying to change all of it bit by bit

I realized things are going to end between us
and  I know the chance of getting back the old days are so small
but I feel so regret for what I've done

all these while
I've learned so much from you
I've been growing up day by day

but now it's all too late
I wanted a one last chance from you to prove myself
but it doesn't seems like it's going to happen anymore

now your impression towards me
is so broken beyond repair
I don't know what I can do

I'm not even sure there's anything I can do
but I care about you so much
and you mean so much to me

those happy days of chit-chatting we had together was not enough
I'm greedy for more of it, cause I never wanted to say goodbye

I've always prepared myself that we might never talk to each other
but now that it really happens
all I can feel beneath my heart is panic

I'm so freaked out because we might actually never talk again
I'm so scared that in the future
we're back to persons who doesn't know each other anymore

I actually got panicked
don't know what I should do

I'm helpless
yet I'm still doing what I can to let you know
how important you are to me

feelings doesn't just fades away that easily
once it's in our heart, it'll just remains forever

and I'm afraid of that
because I'm going to carry all my feelings towards you
all by my own, alone..

I have no one to share with
I might never heard from you again

this feels like a nightmare to me
something I hope would never happen
something I hope I would never deal with

but then how?
you said you don't care about it anymore
and it breaks my heart so severely

I want you to care
I want you to talk to me like you used to
but how?

it's all falling apart
and all I can taste now is the bitterness in my heart
and the salty taste of tears rolling down my cheek

I feels so bad..
all of this feels so bad..
so bad..
='(
　

又開始想你了～

已經有一段時間了
沒有聽到你的任何消息
甚至沒有一句問候

你知道我有多想念你嗎？
你相信我竟然還在等待嗎？

回想起那些美好的時間
當時心裏頭的滋味
我好懷念，好想再來一次

而這一次
我一定會更加珍惜
但我還有機會嗎？

想起關於你的很多很多
想起你對我有多大的影響
想起你改變了我多少

我堅信
生命中有你的出現
我真得很慶幸

就算有痛苦的感覺出現過
我依然很高興自己因爲你
而成長了不少

好久了
我卻依然還在堅守
似乎寧願相信一些不平凡的事情
會發生在自己的身上

等待着一個對自己來說不平凡的人
來改變自己的生命
把一切最美的火花帶進我的心裏

忽然想起兩首歌
兩首因爲你而愛上的歌
屬於同一位因爲你而愛上的歌手

《終身美麗》

讓我回憶起
一年前
幸運的自己
一轉身就看到你的身影

如果當時的我沒有緊握住你
此刻的我唯一擁有的感覺就是遺憾

遺憾自己錯過了很多
遺憾自己的人生會少了很多精彩
那些只有你能給予的精彩

《不要驚動愛情》

讓我忽然想起
這場艱辛的路途
或許是上天給我的一個考驗

一個人如果輕易就能擁有一些什麽
那他得到之後一定不會好好珍惜

所以
如果時間是打開你心扉的鑰匙
那麽無論要我等多久
我都願意

因爲我知道你值得我這麽做
因爲我想證明給你看
自己有多麽愛你，多麽在乎你

多想好好珍惜
在我平凡的生命裏
出現的不平凡的你

這些話讓我看起來好傻

那是因爲沒有人
可以同時擁有愛情和理智

愛上另一個人的每個人
都會因爲太在乎對方
而失去所有判斷能力

很笨
卻也最真誠