Alone~

I'm tired
I've been waiting for months
but turns out
not everything goes the way how I want it

now that I finally realized
who is that person you've got in your eyes

it's not me
it hadn't been me
and it would never be me

maybe everything is too late
maybe that thing I've been waiting for
staying awake this several night
is just a disappointment
maybe it just does not deserve all these waiting

night after night
I'm hoping for at least something from you

it doesn't have to be much
but at least comforting

but after all these anticipating
all I've got is one scars that leads to another
going deeply into my heart

every tears that rolled down worth nothing to you
but I just feel like I have to keep on crying

because with nobody for me to depend on
I can only cry out all my depressed feelings

the sorrowfulness of lonesome dark night hitting
leading me to a dim world
without light, without color, and without you

you used to be a very important part in my life
that was months ago

and after several months of silences
I thought that was the end of all

but turns out it's not
I still miss you so much
I just can't go on without you

what am I suppose to do now?
I can't find my way at the crossroads anymore
I'm totally lost

can't find a way back
and refuse to step forward
scaring that I might made a wrong choice
and giving myself more pain to suffer from

turning round and round
crying loud
hoping for a hand to leads me through my way

where is that hand that I needed most?
I do hope that would be your hand
but certainly that's just a fantasy

everything is nothing but just a dream
a dream I hope I would never wake up from
but I still have to do so

accepting the fact that reality world are always cruel
I figure it's time to step forward
choosing the correct path
with less pain, and more happiness

but still
I'm going to express all my feelings towards you
with the easiest, yet the most complex 3 words in the world..

I Love You

this relationship that happen between us
is a bitter memory

but still
there's part that I would cherish and never forget
for the rest of my life..

Alone - Celine Dion 

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark

I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone

And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone

* Till now I always got by on my own
  I never really cared until I met you

  And now it chills me to the bone
  How do I get you alone
 
You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight

You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight

But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone