無題～

你

好

凍

。

比起以前，
你現在的冷淡，
讓我不知該不該繼續找你。

我，
原來那麽想念你。

我，
原來那麽捨不得。

點解咁多點解？

點解會搞成咁？

呢啲根本唔係我要嘅結局！

點解我會咁褂住你？

點解等不到你我會咁慌張？

點解我就係冇辦法放低你？

點解我嘅醋意一路都唔會停？

點解我冇勇氣同你講心底嘅説話？

點解你要走入我嘅世界，然後再靜靜哋離開？

點解你唔再好似以前咁熱情？

點解會有咁多點解？

點解冇人可以畀個解答我？

點解？

blah blah blah~

I've actually noticed
how you've changed

before and after that thing happened
between you and me

do you really have to be that realistic?
had you even considered my feelings?

do you know how selfish you are?
you have any idea your inconsiderate is giving me so much pain?

you have any idea how bad I feel to hear you say those things?
I have to force myself to stay happy and be encouraging in front of you

I have no intentions to know about those things
cause every single words you say about it hurts me

now that you've appear in my life again
I thought it was something I would be happy about

but I never knew how much pain you're bringing into me
now that I realized, this feeling really do sucks!

I would wish you'll never appear again
stay disappear as  you were before

but since now you've lighten the fire up in my heart
it's impossible for me to let you go anymore

ouch
this dilemma just totally hurts

but what am I going to do?
after all, I'm addicted to your presence around me

sigh..

你當然可以很瀟灑的說放下就放下

你當然有本事說要放棄就放棄

但我呢？

我怎麽辦？

你有想過我的處境嗎？

你有想過我的感受嗎？

生悶氣～

你好笨
你真的好笨

我喜歡的人是誰？
當然是你啊！

你 這樣問我
我該怎麽把這種愚蠢的答案跟你說？

我當然知道我們什麽都不是
我當然知道我們不 可能

但是感覺這種東西
真的不是我能控制的

你真的一點都沒有感覺 到嗎？
還是你就算知道了，卻寧願當成不知道？

聼你說着你的一切
我當然會吃醋啊！

我 的心多麽不好過啊
那種難受，真的很難以形容

《終身美麗》的歌詞裏說的就是我心中的一切

“我这幸运儿合着眼睛，只得你沉重身影”　。。

“如果这记忆非爱情，连天都不会太高兴”　。。

“对你不止感激敬礼，当你知己才是虚伪”　。。

“莫非多一分秀丽，才值得分享我的一切”　。。

你真的真的好笨，真的好笨

笨得讓我心痛，笨得讓我痛苦流淚

猜不透－戴佩妮

只是有一种感觉　不想再争论了
我想它们都猜对了　不是吗　我累了
 
而灯都关了　而心却还是复杂的
找不到一个藉口让自己平静

也许是一种冲动吧　突然想起了
发现每一个细节里　我都是　被忽略的

把窗都关了　但手却还是冷冷的
彷佛又跌入了两个人的陷阱里挣扎

而结论是什么
我不知道　不知道
 
＊　猜不透你到底对我有多好
　　说的话到底有能算多少
　　祈求已变成是我的依靠
　　我的沉默是一种祈祷

　　想不透我到底对你多重要
　　我的关心你怎么都不想要
　　我不想再让分开
　　变成是你的需要 好不好

＃　有一种无力感　所以离开了
　　然而是故意也好是自然也好　我都想逃
　　我们是不是结束了　谁会知道
　　我不知道

Alone~

I'm tired
I've been waiting for months
but turns out
not everything goes the way how I want it

now that I finally realized
who is that person you've got in your eyes

it's not me
it hadn't been me
and it would never be me

maybe everything is too late
maybe that thing I've been waiting for
staying awake this several night
is just a disappointment
maybe it just does not deserve all these waiting

night after night
I'm hoping for at least something from you

it doesn't have to be much
but at least comforting

but after all these anticipating
all I've got is one scars that leads to another
going deeply into my heart

every tears that rolled down worth nothing to you
but I just feel like I have to keep on crying

because with nobody for me to depend on
I can only cry out all my depressed feelings

the sorrowfulness of lonesome dark night hitting
leading me to a dim world
without light, without color, and without you

you used to be a very important part in my life
that was months ago

and after several months of silences
I thought that was the end of all

but turns out it's not
I still miss you so much
I just can't go on without you

what am I suppose to do now?
I can't find my way at the crossroads anymore
I'm totally lost

can't find a way back
and refuse to step forward
scaring that I might made a wrong choice
and giving myself more pain to suffer from

turning round and round
crying loud
hoping for a hand to leads me through my way

where is that hand that I needed most?
I do hope that would be your hand
but certainly that's just a fantasy

everything is nothing but just a dream
a dream I hope I would never wake up from
but I still have to do so

accepting the fact that reality world are always cruel
I figure it's time to step forward
choosing the correct path
with less pain, and more happiness

but still
I'm going to express all my feelings towards you
with the easiest, yet the most complex 3 words in the world..

I Love You

this relationship that happen between us
is a bitter memory

but still
there's part that I would cherish and never forget
for the rest of my life..

Alone - Celine Dion 

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark

I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone

And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone

* Till now I always got by on my own
  I never really cared until I met you

  And now it chills me to the bone
  How do I get you alone
 
You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight

You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight

But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone